For most of my life, my instinct toward losing something was always the same. Get it back. If something slipped away, I would chase it, hold on tighter, try to fix it, try to return things to the way they were. I treated every loss…
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No Matter How Hard I Try, If You Are Zero, the Result Is Still Zero
There is one simple thing I learned back in school, but only truly understood after I grew up. No matter how big a number is, if you multiply it by zero, the result is still zero. A hundred times zero is zero. A million times…
Why Do We Find It Easier to Say “I’m Fine”?
There is one sentence that comes out of my mouth almost every day without me thinking about it first. When someone asks how I am doing, the answer is always the same. I’m fine. Even when sometimes I am not fine at all. But that…
I Was Afraid of When I’m Gone
For most of my life, I never really thought about death. It felt far away, like something that happens to other people, in other families, on other days. Then one night, for no clear reason, the thought came to me. Someday I will be gone….
The Friendship I Ruined Without Saying a Single Word
I was scrolling Instagram before sleep, as usual, when I found a Minecraft reel. Just normal gameplay, someone walking around a village, mining, opening chests. But the text on top was not about Minecraft. It said something like “one of the things I hate most…