Lately I realized that I spend most of my life living for later. Savings for later, learning for later, working for later, even collecting experiences for later. Almost everything I do is aimed at some version of me that does not exist yet. And slowly…

The world seems to worship speed. Work fast, succeed fast, get rich fast, learn fast. Everywhere I look, the message is roughly the same, that whoever gets there sooner wins, and whoever moves slowly is falling behind. For a long time I believed it too….

Lately I realized there is one thing slowly disappearing from me, the courage to be a beginner. Everyone now wants to look competent. We are afraid to ask, afraid to be wrong, afraid to look like we cannot do something yet. But once upon a…

The internet has given us so many words to judge people with. Red flag, toxic, narcissist, gaslighting, love bombing, the list keeps growing. And I notice that the more terms we have, the faster we reach for them. A small gesture, one awkward sentence, a…

This one is probably different from my other writing, hehe. I am writing this for my late grandmother, Mbah. A few days ago, on October 1st 2026, I got the news from my mom and dad at 3 in the afternoon that Mbah had passed…